Category: Ramblings

This is me, speaking through my fingers. Could just be about anything. Like the ant I see on my LCD monitor right now.

Resolutions. Churvalutions. Ek la vu.

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It really doesn’t feel any different. 2009. 2010. And now 2011. People talk about resolutions, things to do, things to NOT do, places to go, places to NOT go to AGAIN. You know, those kind of things.
But what about me? It’s already the 5th of January and I still have to think of those things. But wait! I never do. Year after year, I don’t think about those things. Maybe this year, I should. Or try to.
My head is spinning. I have an out-to-get-me kind of headache. I am not sure if this is the right time for me to think of resolutions and etc.
But before I forget, I should probably make a note of some. Like… Uhmmm… Darn… Still haven’t figured it out just yet. Oh yeah!
First! I will write more. Not just here but my journal as well. When I say journal, I am talking about the notebook type wherein when there’s too much in my head, my penmanship is barely readable.
Okay, my head is really giving me a hard time. So, I will park this for now. I am tempted not to publish it. But it also means that I MIGHT end up scrapping it. I will finish this tomorrow. I guess that’s something I have to do. Resolutions and etc. Eeeek!

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I told myself that I was going to finish this. So finish this post I will. Or should I say “I shall”? Back to my list.
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I will write more. That’s my first resolution. What to write about? I don’t know yet. I will just go with the flow (of my brain/heart).

My second, third, and fourth resolutions are as follows: know what I want, know when I want it, and then know how to get it. I’m not talking about material things. I’m talking about goals. What I want for my life. When (in particular) do I want certain “things” to happen. And finally to know how to get or achieve what I want for my life. Sounds simple enough. Sounds. But I know it would be really hard. First things first, I still need to decide on the “what” question. The “when” is probably the easiest to answer. But I can’t skip the question before that.

Hmmmm… Come to think of it, I don’t think those would count as resolutions. But it really doesn’t matter now. Does it?

And now I’m pretty much done with this topic about resolutions. I don’t even know why I ventured into this. Maybe I was just going with the “flow”. Which is kinda weird since I rarely do that. Well, there’s always a first time for everything.

My protector. My best friend. My sister.

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How do people make it through life without a sister?  ~ Sara Corpening

Indeed, how do they? For the life of me, I cannot imagine my life without my sisters. Sure we fight. And sometimes our fights are not petty. Sometimes, the tears won’t stop flowing during or after the fight. But at the end of the day, we are still sisters and we look after each other.

The mildest, drowsiest sister has been known to turn tiger if her sibling is in trouble.  ~ Clara Ortega

Indeed. We transform. Not just into tigers, but dragons. Is it not natural to protect one’s siblings? In my family, protecting each other comes naturally as loving each other. We can fight all we want, even say hurtful things, but at the end of the day, we know that  family still comes first. No questions asked. No need for questions.
That’s for my family anyway.
Something that I thought was natural, wasn’t as natural as I thought it was. For Yodawan, he’s not as lucky as me. Unfortunately for him, when it’s his fight, he’s on his own. He will not be defended even by his own blood.
Because of his experience, I realized just how lucky I am. With the sisters that I have, with my family, I know that I am blessed.

She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities.  She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway.  She is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark.  She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink.  Some days, she’s the reason you wish you were an only child.  ~ Barbara Alpert

I will say this now: I refuse to trust a fool.

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Hopeful as I was before, it is my choice to be bitter and hopeless. I always say that our life is the sum of all the choices we made and we should never blame anyone else for the consequences of our choice. I made my choice by shading the oval beside the number 8.

I will say this now: I refuse to trust a fool.

If in time I am proven wrong, then I would gladly take back my statement.

I was never part of the opposition. I always believed that despite the imperfections of the Arroyo Administration, they handled the global economic recession fairly well. This time around, I wouldn’t mind being part of the opposition. There’s a first time for everything.

But for now, I will sit back and wait if he delivers what he promised during his campaign… Can’t wait for the 1st day (of the 100 days) to start.